This might sound very disturbing, but i comitted sodomy and I dont know what to do anymore. I live in fear anxiety and depression everyday because I don't know if there is any hope for me in the hereafter. I ask Allah to forgive me every single day. My life has changed, my character is broken I have constant headaches and panic attacks.

Will I be forgiven if I let the Hudud be implemented on me? If yes can someone help me achieve this ?

I cry everyday to Allah to forgive me. I pray salat on time and I try to be a better person. But this all did not make me feel any happier or less sad.

Is there any hope for me?