I'm ungrateful over the way I look and the way I am treated.

I don't even wantwted go to my uni anymore because I get the feeling that I'm repulsive and small. Women sometimes make comments and of course I get no respect from guys because apparently respect comes from size and shape.

I just can't understand why Allah couldn't have shaped me better. He has all the power in the universe and isn't undersupplied in anything, so why bring misery?

I ain't good enough for these people and I can't control it. This is why I destroy my body with cigarettes and tobacco.

I'd rather live their lives for them than live my life. I don't want it, its worthless to me.

I want to be them and look like them, like the things I see. That's all.