My mother is a secular, irreligious, Kemalist/Gulenist who does not wear hijab and follows a watered down version of Islam and calls me extremist or "Wahhabi" when I bring up facets of the deen. She forces me to shave, although now that I am older and stronger and more independent I have resisted her pressure......and now I am developing a beard Alhamdulillah. She says, in Turkish, (sorry, no direct translation), "you've eaten s***" when I say musical instruments and the singing voice of women is haram.....she used to let me try and go on dates.....she buys non zabiha meat and doesn't care when I eat it, even packing it into my school lunch....she's ok with me masturbating, and gets mad but doesn't do anything when she finds out I am watching porn.......she says it is ok to do free mixing with the opposite sex in college.......and lately, she has banned me from going to Friday halakhas at the masjid, or getting a private tutor from the masjid, and also gets angry about me using this forum, saying (about the forum) "you will be brainwashed", and (about the private tutor) I am already sending you to sohbets (halakhas) (with gulen movement, in Turkish, which I often don't understand, and reading from risale-i-nur, not quran), and (about halakhas) I can not drive you,and I have my own halakhas (my parents are divorced and I don't have a driver's license).......

I am sick and tired of this, and whenever I am listening to imams and sheikhs online on youtube, and they say things which sound Arabic or angry, she gets mad and asks "WHAT are you listening to????????" I am very angry, and I want to know what I should do......